get lost

i can laugh while you smile

i can win while you strive

i use a sword while you struggle with a knife

i run while you walk behind



i emerge as a winner every time

i kiss the trophy while you lag behind

i see you, now panting, gasping for breath

something shivers inside me -seeing you like that



a hazy screen of past in front of my eyes

a hazy screen of deceit , heartbreak and lies

a while back it was you who i intended to kiss

and not the trophy,but with you i could find bliss



there was a time when you mattered

much more than a win

and for you i could let my hopes be shattered

and gladly accept defeat



once i used to dance in joy

with every little win you had ,my boy

but not anymore

no , not anymore



my tears never made you cry

the words you spoke were hollow and dry

my love you kicked away with a smirk

boy , you do not know but i was hurt



what all you did was to hurt me

you wanted to drench me in pain

and the day you said sorry

i felt something in you was humane



but i was wrong still

as probably i was always

you had no guilt

and you won' t ever mend your ways



i was pushed into years of gloom by your words

i could not gather strength to again stand up

you snatched away my will from me

you pushed me into darkness of recurrent defeats



what i do now,don't take it as a revenge

i am just back to gain my lost strength

and now as you put me to whatever challenge

you have me victorious at every step



now your defeat does not disappoint me

now your state does not unnerve me

yes , i feel sympathy when u go panting

but that is only because of humanity which in you is lacking





note: on the special request of my dear friend utpala, who wanted a poem that says "get lost"