the words

you have talked with such sweetness

that all your words have felt like a touch

that i had started to feel unconscious and senseless

that i had felt the love too much.

i felt we did breathe the same air

i feel the same beat our hearts had

i feel we had cried the same tear

i feel we had felt the same hand

i feel you had taken me

and taken me to your heart

i feel you had mistaken me

where you had your part

i am blinded, my eyes have darkened

i am tired, my lips have swollen

i am cold, cold and passionless

while your warmth gave me breath

i am away and aloof now

i have no part in my heat's sorrow

i have nothing to think

i have nothing to give

yor words had caught me with red fire

and let my passion set burning

you had set on the desire

and left me alone, dying.

you were there only for a moment

you were there only for a single smile

you were there where had been movement

and then left me deserted like the tide

you came like a storm,

you came like a fire

and left me alone

left me with desire-

desire to know you

desire to talk to you

desire to hear those words again

desire to let go off the pain

i had nothing to tell you

but had a lot to hear

i had no words for you

but lots to be whispered in my ear

i had almost given up hope

when you decided to return.

i had almost regained hope

when you decided not to return.

you gave me strength

you gave me breath

you gave me life

you give me death

you gave me tears after smiles

you gave me silence after voice

you gave me death after life

you gave me not what i desired

and that is because you left me midway

and that is because you left me half way

and that is because you left no way

no way by which i could go back.

i lost all i had

i was touched even when untouched

i lost my breath

i lost in that single moment

-the moment that you left me

when you promised not to love me

when you decided to be silent

and also decided to shut me up

i had nowhere to go

no shoulder to cry on

i knew i will love you

even when you will move on

i thought you had not only

shed my tears but also my blood

i felt you had not simply left me

but left me in a flood.

and i could never go back to life now

(it's better if i go to death)

because the single moment of sorrow

was enough to snatch my breath.

it is better if you would set me free

by leaving you niceness to yourself

by showing me only what's ugly

and keep your fake goodness to yourself

because you know

and so do i

that love will not flow

(however hard i try)

why give me then false hopes

why then hold me to life's rope

why not then tell me directly

that you only have hatred for me

why leave me thinking

why leave me disillusioned

that i can't be free even when dying

and become the only one to be questioned

your no would mean death for me

to this simple fact, i agree

but why do you have to care for me

and care to say a sorry?

shed your goodness as i can't bear it

shed your goodness as i can see through it

shed your false care as i don't want it

in death, true and disillusioned, i will have peace, let me get it.